So here's the deal...
I only have a short time to write as must prep to go to work shortly, but, I know if I START the thread NOW, I will be sure to come back to it later tonight at work and fill in the important blanks
In very brief, my second lesson, two weeks ago, I did not post about, because I honestly did not have much to say (for those of you who have read ANY of my posts, I REALIZE you probably are assuming someone has hacked my account, as being at a loss for words is GENERALLY NOT MY ISSUE!)...
It was okay, just nothing spectacularly good or bad, and left me repeating the mantra..."Returning to anything takes TIME and a ton of effort; keep up the baby steps and eventually, you will get there..."
However, my THIRD LESSON, just this past Fri., was a total breakthrough!!! It was as if my body & brain finally decided to join together in the effort! I felt "right" atop Fancy; I felt GOOD, and I felt in CONTROL of what I was doing...in other words, my movements were purposeful and specific, and they had specific, desired outcomes which followed them!
All in all, it was literally one of the best days I can remember and I felt on top of the WORLD. I still feel the same, now two days later!
When I have time, I will re-post with some more specifics about the lesson, etc...simply so I can A) show others in the same boat how it doesn't take a whole lot to prove that growth and change ARE OCCURRING, and B) so that in the future, if I have a not-so-great-day/lesson/etc..., I can look back and remember Friday. That is all it will take to rebalance my mind-set...
As for the HELP (!) issue, well, all I can say for now (as I realize it is getting VERY LATE), is that I want desperately to begin my volunteering, and have everything in place to do so, but I am FILLED with trepidation about making THE CALL to speak with the owner of the horse rescue about what days/times I will be available...it is purely a fear/insecurity thing and is ridiculous, but I HAVE TO CALL HER (my trainer had a hand in arranging this, and I WILL NOT do anything to make my trainer look bad or make myself appear wishy-washy). Don't misunderstand...she arranged this at my urging, so did not volunteer me of her own volition! And, this woman DESPERATELY NEEDS VOLUNTEERS, so it is I doing HER the favor just as much as she doing so for me through giving me way more horse time than I could ever get otherwise...but, it its a commitment, and one which I take very seriously!
I guess I will leave it at that and fill in the considerable blanks tonight at work. No need to reply yet, as I probably haven't given enough "issue" to "help" with. However, any stabs-in-the-dark would certainly be welcomed!
To be continued...(p.s. Thanks, guys...)