So some of you know a while ago I had an incident with Muss where i was lunging him in an open space and he bolted when i tried to put him in a canter he turned his head away, bolted and ran through 3 electric fences and jumped a barbed wire, faceplanted got caught in the wire then ripped free and ran around the paddock.
I've felt so guilty, if I hadnt tried to lunge him he would never have got hurt. It's my fault and one of my friends wont let me forget it.Everytime I try and stop blaming myself he always says something to make me remember it all and feel so awful again. Hell I'm at the point where I'm thinking I should just sell my horse so that he can get a better owner that knows how to do the stuff I dont know and doesnt get hurt because of their screwups. We've had some good times so far, hes my first horse and its so much different from just riding the horses at ponyclub. I just dont know what to do.
Sorry for my little rant kinda thing, i just really had to get this off my chest
Friends don't make you feel bad for accidents. That's why they are accidents. I would honestly tell him to knock it off, tell him exactly what you just said here, you already feel bad enough without him being on you about it. Unless he has never made a mistake, then he has no right.
The second part, about selling the horse. NO owner that you find will be perfect. No owner is perfect. It is just not possible. Everyone makes mistakes, and every horse gets hurt, its just a matter of time and severity. Do not sell your horse based on that, trust me, there are WAY worse situations he could be in.He is fed, watered, and cared for with you, that is not guaranteed somewhere else.
Be happy your horse has recovered, learn from your mistake, and forgive yourself. I still blame myself for my horse dying young, but it was an accident. I can reason and "what if" all day long, but it won't do me any good. It won't bring her back, so I remember that I did my best, and she had a good life.
Cherish your horse, be happy he survived the accident, forgive yourself, and move on.