So its kinda a hard decision that I'm in right now. For my first horse I bought a 6 year old, 16.2hh thoroughbred. Yes I know, very stupid but I bought him off a friend and so far he's been good. But I tried lunging him in an open stage and he bolted at a canter and spooked and went through 3 electric fences and jumped a barbed wire and got caught in it. I've noticed with him he has moments where when he panicks to a point theres nothing you can seem to do or say that will calm him down and that's dangerous to everyone. I went out and brushed him today and spent some time with him and he was such a good boy naughtiest thing he did was paw at the ground twice which he didnt get away with and I decided its time to bring him back into work and so I rang a trainer that I've been told is good and asked them if they could help me bring him back into work and ever since I feel like everything i've done for muss has been a waste of time and that I never should have bought him and that im out of my depth. He was quite harsh, saying it was stupid for me to have bought such a horse and that I should think about selling and getting a calmer horse to ride but will come out and help me with him in a few days time if I want. So here I am now, feeling awful like I really am out of my depth, even a trainer who hasnt even met my horse says I am. I've had an instructor tell me this as well so maybe everyone is all right. I can't sell him though, he's my best friend and we shared some great moments and I don't want to give up on him because he has so muuch potential, I just need some experienced help and we are looking for the hence why I rang a trainer that I was told was good. So now im just wondering maybe he is too much for me, maybe im better off buying an older smaller horse.
I just don't know anymore. I love him so much but because of me he's been put through hell, I just don't know should I look for another trainer? Should I sell him? What should I do.
Heres some pics to give you an idea of what he looks like, what we look like and what I did to him on accident because I didnt know how to lunge properly.