I am completely stuck on what to do. I've owned Whisper for 2 years and I absolutely love her to death, but I'm just not sure keeping her makes the most sense right now. I just got her back from the trainers who started her for me, but now it's all up to me, and with the time I have I don't thnk I'll be able to do her any justice. I am really only a beginner/intermediate rider and keeping up with a very green horse is feeling like a bit too much right now.
Not to mention that I feel too big on her as she's ony 14.1hh and I'm 5'8". I'm sure she has a little more growing to do, but I still think she'll be too small. I also really want to barrel race, and I thought Whisper would do, but not at this rate, I wont be barrel racing for a very long time. It seems that whenever I make progress, it's gone by the next time I see her. The thing is, I think it's mostly my nerves. I rode her a couple times at her trainers before she came home and she was great. It's like she just stopped tryng as soon as she got home, but I also feel like my nerves are giving her mixed signals. I can't afford any more training right now as I still havn't paid Whisper's trainer, and Persia is still currently in training. My SIL just bought 2 new totally bombproof horses, and I feel like riding her horses more than I feel like riding my own.
The hard part is I feel really guilty. I never thought I would sell her, even if she wasn't great at barrels, but keeping her is making the least amount of sense over keeping Persia, who I always thought would be the first to go. I have never met a horse sweeter than Whisper, ever. She seems to know that I really care about her and I'm agonizing over the thought that she might think I abandoned her. Then there's the fear that someone wont treat her right or she'll end up at auction.
I don't know what to do. I guess I'm just looking for some encouragement. I'de like some thoughts or advice from people who have experienced getting rid of a horse they were extremely attached to or deciding to keep a horse that wasn't the best fit. Thanks.