Thanks to you all so much for the support and encouragement! I rode Grace this morning and it cleared my head. We're showing this Saturday and I need to get my focus on that this week, so this morning's ride got me back to Grace (who I adore, she's just ultimately not the horse I want to own.)
I'm going to see that boy that rescheduled, this Wednesday. I'm really hopeful about this guy, he has the dressage training I've been looking for and is gorgeous. Fingers crossed! He ended up having an abscess on his foot last night, so hopefully by Wed he will be ok.
In the meantime hubby and I worked on our new trailer today, cleaning it and getting it ready to haul for the first time to the show. Hubby is so supportive in this whole process, I feel so blessed to have him. He even drove me across the state (and took the day off to do it) on Friday to see a horse I had doubts about, and didn't even grumble as we left and I told him it wasn't the right horse. He's even open to flying to California to see a horse my dressage trainer knows of! I'm just not sure I want to go that route...there's got to be the perfect horse for me in my own state!