Corgi. Sounds like the ride of a life time. Those are the times that stick with us forever. Stan. I havent been around here very long. And I tend to get a little long winded..lol.. but I told the story of my horse that kept jumping off of mountains. Well.. I told that cause of your problems..and from the first time I found this thread the first thing I read was you and stella.and the problemsyou were having. By the time I finally decided to make her a brood mare. I was where you are saying your at now. After and entire life of horses by mid thirties. I just didnt have it in me anymore. When I rode a nice broke saddle horse..broke by me I might add.. the love or horses.and riding came flooding back.i havent read from the time I been here about you going on a great horse back ride. So for me..of course your not looking forward to riding.working a horse. I know if you keep at it. It will happen. Cause honestly. Horses and riding is really a love story. And love can be fickle we need successes for it to continue. Have your perelli trainer and you take both your horses and go for a long. Fantastic ride. She can help you. And you get out. On top of your horse. All summer I been working with a young man that always wanted to train horses. And so much of what I ended up doing was keeping him positive horse require all of us. Mind body and soul. And if any one of those three..mind body and soul is missing when your with your horse. The horse turns into a ship with out a rudder. Find what part is missing. Or two parts that are missing.fix them.. get them back. And it will be what it use to be. Good luck. Happy trails.. and ride safe everyone.