Well here I am. For the the first time in about 15 years, I no longer have a horse of my own. I lost both of my horses back in December. My mare passed away first from complications with colitis, and then my old gelding passed without any warning. I believe he died from a broken heart knowing that my mare was no longer with us. I cried for days. I couldn't look at or even talk about horses for a couple months after, it was extremely difficult.
Now, almost 5 months later, I am feeling better. I have started taking weekly riding lessons again to help fill the need to ride and be around horses. (Although, once weekly is just not enough.)I am also starting to think about saving my bucks again and find me another horse. It's hard to say what I may want in a horse. Maybe find a rescue, or an older well trained seasoned horse, or another green broke youngster like my mare was, or start with a weanling or yearling. Maybe another paint, or QH, or another TB, or maybe a draft of some sort?
I like the idea of being able to just hop on and ride whenever I want, but I also loved having a bit of a project horse. I also feel I might be up to working with a baby and getting them gentled and accepting the feel of a saddle. Then when their mature enough, send them to a professional trainer to put some miles on. But I have plenty of time to debate what would suit me best.
I just wanted to make a post to let everyone know that when you love and dream about horses, there is no taking that love or the dream away. There is nothing more true than the saying, you can take the girl/boy away from the horse, but you can't take the horse out of the girl/boy. After my horses passed away, I thought to myself I think I'm done owning horses, I just can't deal with losing them again. But the more I thought about it, the more I found myself dreaming of having another horse in my life. I'd be dumb if I gave up on my dream. Horses are who I am. I wouldn't trade them in for the world.