Kind of long.....sorry!....
I have recently come to the realization of something that has been very hard to admit: I am scared to death to ride my new horse.....
I grew up riding horses. I got my first when I was 13, and owned one horse or another until I was 30. Then we started a family, I got out of ownership (though I did ride with a friend every now and then), and basically just got away from horses for several years.
Now I have a new one, and I'm just plain scared to ride.
He was a bit flighty when he first arrived, but that was due to being in a new place and all that. At one point I was leading him, and something spooked him on the right - so he shot straight left, smack into me. He hit my knee so hard that I dropped to the ground and couldn't get up for several minutes. It was about then that I started to wonder, What have I gotten into?!...He has WAY settled down and as horses go, he's a real sweetheart. I finally got on him today, for all of 3 minutes. I was terrified the entire time that he was going to bolt or spook or otherwise do something to unseat me. So we stood there!!!
I feel so pathetic!!!! I'm an experienced horse-person, but apparently I've been away from it for so long that I've lost my groove, my confidence, and my nerve!
Has anyone else ever gone through this?? Does anyone have ANYthing to offer by way of encouragement?!