It is really hard, and you don't really ever get over it, but it does become easier and less painful. I'm coming up on a year since my filly, Pia, colicked and didn't make it - the less I focus on it the better I do.
When I got my next mare after her, I was quite sure for a long time that I'd made a huge mistake in getting another horse so soon afterwards, and just didn't feel like we were bonding at all. It took a bit, and once I'd sent her to the trainer, and started seriously working with her and gaining her trust, she really blossomed. I'm happy I ended up with her after all, but there's still times when I just really wish I'd been more able to help Pia, especially right around now.
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