Oh I definitely know what that's like. I wanted a horse for soo long. Now that I have Jubilee, sometimes I can hardly believe I actually have one of my own. I wouldn't curb your desire. Let the desire to have your own horse fuel your eagerness to learn. Learn everything you possibly can about horses, by riding them, interacting with them and being instructed by others. I know you're just getting into the horse scene and not trying to sound negative but for a beginner owning a horse sounds and looks so glamourous. But a lot of is hard work too. Dressage is beautiful yes, but that's not what all horses do. There's vet bills, cleaning up manure and the dragging heavy water buckets, lol. Not trying to discourage you, but just get some more experience under your belt first before owning a horse. It's only fair to you AND the horse you own. Again, not trying to sound negative. But just keep learning!