Okay, I'm posting this here because, well, no one else knows what I am going through right now. Only HORSE people know.
It's been a rough week, I won't go into specifics, but, just ROUGH and my car decided to take a crap after I spent all my money remodeling my kitchen. Go figure, right?
Oh, my car runs beautifully, don't get me wrong. But she's old and my rear passenger shock went through my wheel well since the underbody is so rusted out. It's a $1500.00 fix or a new car. So, I can drive it, but not out to the horses because there are crappy roads between here and there and as soon as I hit a bump my car is all over the road, no control whatsoever.
My horse babies are 22 miles away from me, essentially, on the other side of the world right now, a 45 minute drive...if you have a car.
So, I have gone from being out there 4 or 5 days a week to basically renting my best friend's truck on Sundays and possibly wednesdays for an hour or so.
Top this off with having just about the worst week in recorded history and bam! I'm toast. Plus my guilt issues about being a horrible, neglectful horse mommy.
I have an emergency credit card in case my horse gets sick, but I have no emergency funds for myself, again, go figure!
So, I'm posting pictures of what I would rather be doing right now and what I could really, really use. All I need is a big horsey hug right now and I can't get to my safe place with my boys.
So, I've resorted to carrying around the snippets of mane that I have clipped from them and pouting in my coffee.
All my non horse friends have their suggestions:
Grab a six pack and veg in front of the t.v.
Take a hot bath.
Cover your head and sleep it off.
Go for a run.
Turn on some loud music and sing along.
Well, I don't drink, I hate sitting in bath water, when I wake up my horses are going to be just as far away, I don't run unless I'm working on ground manners and I only sing when I'm at the barn.
Am I pathetic or WHAT? If it weren't 23 degrees I swear I would WALK.
Still feeling sorry for myself.