It's been 2 months since I was on a horse. I dream about it every night and it's getting a bit absurd.
Candy is lame and I have a feeling she'll have to be retired (at age of 14). Something is wrong with her sacroiliac joint and the first round of injections didn't help at all. Vet comes again next week to repeat the injections, but he didn't want to say anything about her rideability.
I wanted to take some lessons in spring again, but I won't now since all my money is vet's now. And horses will have to survive few months more before getting their teeth floated.
I'm afraid I won't ride for few years now. I can't afford another horse or lessons + having 2 pasture puffs...
I really really miss riding so much
My senior year is horrible and there is no relaxation that I used to get from riding.
I'm even more afraid about what's going on with Candy and it's just too much for me.
I was never more stressed out than I am now. I even started to have breathing problems again (had them when I was a little child). I can't fall asleep in the evenings because of that, so I'm exhausted and everything seems much worse because of it.
So, rant over. Thanks for reading...