First, there's this horse named Monster. I have been riding him for about 1 1/2 months now about once a week. He's really grown on me and I really really love him. One problem: he's only been off the track for about 2 months. I have no idea how to train an ex-racehorse. I am getting books on it soon, but I feel sometimes that I'm not skilled enough for him. Another thing, I love to jump. BUT I tried lunging Monster over a small jump and he didn't like it one bit. I might be able to slow things down and get him over it, but there's still the experience issue.
Second, I could look for a different horse. I have found one that's 10 years old and a schoolmaster. He's trained over jumps and is a "beginner's" horse. I would think I am an intermediate rider. I have some problems with my balance and with my effectiveness as a rider, but I am working on some exercises (pilates, running, ab work).
I don't know how I could just "give up" on Monster though. I've grown so close to him and our bond is pretty strong even though we've only been together for a short time. I'm just wondering what you guys think I should do.