I Really Don't Know What to Do
Pre-P.S. I didn't know where else to post this, so it's going here.
As some of you may know, every so often I come on here and post about some problem or other I'm facing with Tango. Well, all those problems were just symptoms of a cause. The cause being, she has too much energy. She's the kind of horse that needs worked HARD every single day, and because she has too much energy her outlets are all negative ones (like purposely misbehaving just to see how you'll react-I'm not joking on this one). Previously she'd crowhop (I always thought it was bucking until she actually DID buck with me once-yeah, those definitely were not bucks), bolt, heck, even rear, and while she doesn't do that anymore, because for her it's just not natural, she is still so frustrated because she just has SO-MUCH-ENERGY.
Honestly, my plan with this horse was to be able to go out trail riding across the countryside by myself. Not only fun, but it would keep her energy levels at a decent amount and she might be the totally calm, quiet little pony I bought last summer. But with her so eager to run, I don't think I can go out by ourselves, simply because I don't know what would happen. Wind back to a year ago, I would've been out flying around the township on this horse, but now I just don't know. I'm angry at myself for not keeping her exercised enough, but it's like a never-ending circle: I can't go out alone because she's too hyper, and she's too hyper because I don't take her out. I do ride her at home, but I rarely canter because she's just...too hyper. I mean, one day I did trot and canter her for almost 3 hours and she was still ready to run a 50-mile marathon after. My instructor has told me to just get out and run until she's tired, and then run some more. It seems like the most logical way, but again, I'm not sure I should be galloping alone.
Ah...I've been talking like she's some insane nutcase, but honestly, she is the sweetest horse you'd ever meet. She's never kicked, reared on, lashed out at me etc etc, she's never thrown me or tried to and I've never fallen off her. All my time riding her alone she's never bucked or been malicious or violent (the one time she bucked-once-we were in a very trying riding lesson), and last summer she was just as gentle as a lamb. She's the kind of horse that would be great on a ranch somewhere, going out to check fences or cattle every day and working, and she'd without a doubt be the best horse on the farm.
Which makes the decision of whether or not to sell her so hard. I almost wish-so bad-that she was violent and aggressive, because it would be so much easier to get rid of her and not regret it. I've been brooding over it for months now, and I've never thought so hard about anything in my life. My instructor even said to me: "She's such a great and sweet horse that I'm never going to tell you that you should sell her, but at this point [after all we've gone through] if you came to me and told me you wanted to sell, I wouldn't tell you no, and I'd help you find a buyer." I almost broke into tears right there, because I knew we were nearing the end of the rope with her. If I did sell, I'd just be inconsolable for like a week, and I don't know if I'd even want another horse. Where would I ever find a horse like her? No vices, not a mean bone in her body..
Well, after SO much thought and personal strife and struggle, I've made my decision: I am going to keep her until the end of the summer, and I'd have the entire summer to work with her and try and get her calmed down and straightened out. I've been trying really hard to get someone-anyone-to come riding with me, but so far there's really been no biters. I'd like to get my instructor to go for a gallop with me, but she's always busy. I mean, do you think she might do that in the place of a riding lesson one night? I'd still pay her and everything, but Tuesday nights are the only times I see her. So I'm really at a loss. How can I get Tango exercised when I have no one to go with? Simply riding around home is not sufficient enough-as I stated above. So finally, my question is:
What else can I do to get her energy out?
A ridiculous question, but a fair one at that. And please, with all due respect, I don't want everyone telling me: Sell her! Sell her and get a new horse! Not because I'm going to say: "No, me and mah pretty poneh have the best friendship evah and I'll never sell her!", simply that I have given it more than enough thought already, and I've reached the decision that if I can't have her at a good enough spot by summer's end, however hard it is, I will be selling her. *I want to cry just thinking of that ='(*
Thank you if you read that!