However, I came across another gelding at the barn who is for sale. I don't have any details on him, aside from the fact he's covered in mud, head shy and very 'tuned out'. By 'tuned out', I mean he stands with his head in the corner and completely ignores everything around him. Walking past his pen, I got this overwhelming urge to go to him and talk to him, and try to rub off some of the caked on mud. Usually, horses will flick an ear toward someone coming toward them, but this guy just stared off into space. The only sign of life I got from him was a soft snuffle.
When I started talking, he began licking his lips. He still didn't look at me, but he flicked an ear toward me. When I began to scratch his withers and slowly work my way up his neck, his lower lip started to droop. When I rubbed his cheek, he didn't move. His ears were fine, but running my hand over his forehead caused a very slight toss of the head before he lowered it again. The look in his eyes just stole my heart - they were so full of wisdom and kindness, but also a little bit of unease. He was quiet, but I could see he was just a little bit nervous.
I spent probably half an hour or 45 minutes with this guy and then entire time, I couldn't ignore the feeling I was getting from him. It was like he was trying to tell me, "I think I like you, but I'm anxious about you." I didn't get any rude, aggressive or bully vibes from him, but I could feel his uncertainty toward me. When I turned to walk away, I caught a glimpse of him turning his head toward me, ever so slightly and quickly.
Is this a normal feeling to have with a horse you don't even know? All I want to do is take this guy out of his pen, give him a good grooming and hop up on his back. I want to be with this horse, and have this horse with me. I've never felt so strongly about a horse in my life, aside from my "heart horse" Vanna, who I tried and tried to locate. The feeling I had about this horse was so strong that I'm actually considering selling my yearling to purchase him. Am I crazy?