I have had thoughts of selling my horse. For those of you who have followed my other thread about my confidence issues, you have a head start. Just a little bit about him...
I got Smoke last November. I've learned a lot since then, and I think I was just so enthusiastic about horsey life that I overlooked a lot of details that are now coming back to the surface. Perhaps I may be able to describe him more succinctly with the following: Pros
-he is amazing on trails. Will go over and through anything I ask of him. Cons
-he's a hard keeper. We keep the boys on 24/7 turnout [with freechoice hay] and there is only one pasture, so separating him at mealtime is not an option. I feel bad that he is still too skinny for what he and I are comfortable with.
-he is buddy sour. He vocalizes constantly if he loses sight of the herd - this is extremely distracting at the 4h clinics we've been to so far this year. The last time, his horsefriend trotted away to do a pattern for demo, and he began to piaffe and get generally upset. If I hadn't have spun him in tight circles and kept his mind busy, he probably would have attempted to follow the other horse, or worse. It could have escalated easily.
-he doesn't know his leads on canter, has a difficult time holding a consistent gait [yes, I am prompting him correctly], and his transitions are absolutely terrible. The resulting movement is painful for me. Additionally, I would like to take him to some local shows this summer, as well as the county fair, but I feel that due to his buddy sourness and movement issues, I would more than likely be sitting in the bleachers watching the others have a good old time. I don't want ribbons, I just want fun...
Aaaand wow, it was not until I finished writing that list that I realized how sparse the pro category was.
Anyway, I guess I'm just in a quandary as to how to proceed. I don't know if I aiming too high for my level of experience, or if I'm not being fair to him. He's a great trail horse, and maybe that should be enough for now to continue to build my confidence?
Or maybe, it's like being with a man. If you ever think the relationship is over, or that you should move on, be with someone else, then it probably is and you probably should.
Am I wrong? Would you sell if you were me?
And who would buy a horse like the one I've just described? Anybody feel like a project? Heh.
Sorry for rambling. Just some thoughts. I'm interested in yours.