Okay, so this may sound sort of hokey. But I am really down tonight. I have a coming 2 yr old gelding who I've raised since birth. He is my first foal and really wasn't planned (by me) as his mom came pregnant when I bought her as a trail horse.
Never-the-less I always wanted a foal and love him dearly! It's been a struggle to get and keep his respect but you know, lately he's gotten so much better. I almost can't complain about his behavior anymore. He's not perfect of course, but compared to the wild child he was, he has gotten pretty darn polite!
Anyway, I always have this feeling like he is worthless because he was born with a mildly deformed leg and he's a grade horse. (Sire is a QH, Dam is a Fox Trotter). I didn't do the cross breeding and I certainly didn't plan the messed up leg, but he has always seemed sound on it and what can you do? It is what it is. My vet feels he will be sound as a trail horse.
So I really don't want to always feel like I am trying to make a silk purse out of a sow's ear. I have a friend with gaited horses and she thinks they are the only type worth owning. And another friend has QH's and she thinks they are the only breed worth owning. What I have is a rather unusual cross that doesn't gait like a gaited horse and isn't as mellow as a QH. And of course he has a bum leg.
I feel like if I ever had to give him away nobody would touch him with a 10 foot pole. And nobody would give him the time of day but me.
I don't want to feel that way. I want to be proud of my "baby." But I feel like he is some sort of illegitimate child that was never meant to be and he has a major conformation defect to boot (the leg). It doesn't help that everyone on this forum is always knocking grade horses. It makes me feel like he is garbage.
So everyone is always so proud of their horses, especially their youngsters. But I feel like I am trying to make a silk purse out of a sow's ear.
How can I get over this feeling? I really want to be proud of him. He's not a BAD looking colt. ( I honestly think he looks better than many purebreds.) But everyone is so into bloodlines and conformation that it really gets me down when I stop to think about it. It's almost like I have to make excuses for him when I introduce him to people. Like "here is my colt that was born with a deformed leg and by the way he is also an unholy mix of QH and Fox Trotter." And "sorry he isn't more polite he is my first foal and I didn't know what I was doing. I tried to raise him right." That's a bit of an exaggeration, but you get the idea.