My filly is out on trial. I didn't think I would be this sad but I am. I love her very much, I'm still not totally sure its what I want to do, but I think its the best choice. Its my first year of university and I am just not going to have the time to do it all. She's three and unbroken and she needs that everyday work and I just don't want to do it. I thought I would get it done over the Christmas holidays (where I had like three months of) but I didn't. It was one of those things that I thought would be a good idea until I actually started doing it.
My life is so busy, when I was at CIT last year I would get maybe 4 hours sleep every night, if that, I wanted to have a horse where when I was stressed I could ride and just not think about everything else, but she was not how I thought she would turn out. I mean the owner said fully ground trained and ready to break in. But she was uncatchable and would freak out if you touched her legs, she's better now but she still has a long way ago until I would jump on her for the first time.
I miss her, I wouldn't even sell her if this person hadn't said so many times how much she loved her and if I was ever selling her to talk to her first. She is at my agistment place and she is really good with her own horse. She has had him for close to 15 years and is looking for a young one so she can semi retire him in a year or so. She comes out twice a day and feeds and rugs and treats her horses well. I think she would take much better care of her than I would.
Sorry this is a pointless post, but thoughts are just swirling in my head. I'm sad.