So some of you know that Junior is being sold, Rhedd has to be put down, and Bear can't be worked for a few months. So I am going to go into a big rant because im depressed and need to.
Yes, I'm sad, depressed about that, not really. I don't think I am going to show him at all this year, maybe just do fair and don't do any jumping or anything. I feel like this year just needs to be a year of learning. I want to start taking lessons and really get into the swing of things. I mean, when I ride him... Lets just say it's a tad bit scary. ;] So I'm just, eh, about Bear.
I feel like I let him down. When I got Junior, it was BAD. We weren't sure if he was goign to pull through, but that little fighter did. I promised him that I wouldn't sell him, he would die on my farm, he would live with me until he took his last breath. Now look what im doing, selling him as a trail horse for $750. I know there is nothing I can do, but I just wish I wasn't having to. This is what started the depression.
My pride and joy. This horse will never be replaced. He is sweet, sane, and my best friend. Haha, funny boy, he would try to crow hop/buck everyone off that wasn't me. He makes me protect him from the other horses who try to get him. I would have him sleep with his head in my lap. He would lick me like I was a piece of hard candy. Know I am sending him off to his death. Though he has Ring Bone, I know that it isn't bad enough for him to have to be put down. This is what has sent me into my 100% depression.
I have lost my will to eat, I have been in a daze for the last few weeks, I am now starting to his the angery and crying stage... Yeah...
Just so you guys know, Bear is doing awesome, you can barely see his ribs anymore. Rhedd isn't being put down until Junior is gone. And someone is coming out to see Junior today.
Sorry for the super long rant, I would be shocked if anyone read the entire thing... O.O