I'm so done with today. It was a fine day, but tonight sucked. I swear everyone is out to get me. All of my riding friends all give me crap for things that I cannot control really. I SWEAR my only true riding friend that I can really trust is Aubre. She has been there for everything and has always been what a best friend really should be.
Anyways, I gave a "friend" a bridle in exchange for a lesson. So I asked her about it and she said "no offense, but you would have gotten more of a lesson if it hadn't taken you so long to find your courage"
"i figured it was better to let you work it out than to push you"
Okay, well her version of a lesson is "nice heels, they are way better than mine" and "Go to that up bank and jump it." All I have to say is... Way to epic fail at giving a "lesson."
So I sent her this:
"It's funny, because when you say "no offense" it is meant to offend. And you saw how he was acting and you couldn't even ride him. It was my first time going XC and I was on an insane horse. Whatever, keep the god **** bridle, it doesn't even matter."
So she replied:
"No, I was really trying not to offend you. I just don't know how to not say things bluntly. And he was not insane by the time you got on; he was going very nicely, which you know by how well he did when you did jump."
Really? I WATCHED him and RODE him while he was freaking out, it was really scary to watch. I am used him being "duh-duh-duuuuuh" horse at home, not spinning, freaking out horse. As Aubre put it, it was like taking a TB who loves racing off the track and then putting them back on it after 4 years of being away from it (just an example). Watching him was the scary thing for me. I watched him freak out, I saw what he could do with me, it scared me. It was my FIRST time XC and I thought I did alright, but obviously not.
Anyways, am I wrong here? I am already having a bad evening, so maybe I'm just being to touchy...