If she does end up leaving I'm not sure what I'm going to do. At all. I won't be able to go on trails and shows really won't be that much fun.
But now she's trying to get me to go with her. Apparently she'd be riding higher level horses, doing a little bit of Dressage and Jumping and get to go to ranked shows. That'd be really cool. But it's also about fourty minutes from my house and I'm about, oh, two years away from getting my drivers license? Let's just say that my parents are rather busy and already get annoyed when they have to drive me to the barn five minutes from our house.
I'd ride once a week for the most part again. Even if I did get better, I don't think I'd get that much better if I was only riding once a week.
I think I need to decide if I want to show higher or just kind of ride for fun. But I can't decide. Has anyone else had this problem?
Another thing: I don't click really well with just any horse. And it takes me a while to actually start figuring them out, which is where I'm at with Allegra. If I drop it all now will Allegra ever do anything again?
I'm seriously over here in tears. This week has just been too much for me to handle. Went to a new high school this year, marching band, homework, the barn...
Oh, and on top of that, the girl that's leaving was just told she could ride four or five random horses around the barn. One of which being Allegra if I get too busy. Which I know I won't be. But the words 'more advanced' were in the text message and I'm starting to wonder just what's going on. Did I mention that this person has her own horse? Does my instructor really hope to have her take on like, six horses? She's fifteen.
I don't think I can do this anymore.