*sigh* So, I am ever so slightly frustrated, and I know it's my fault, but still.
Having a horse has been my dream since I "rode" a little carnival pony on a lunge line when I was 3 or something, but I couldn't really start riding until I was 17. It's been on and off for the past 1.5 years because we travel a LOT. However, my high school has agreed to let me ride for a health credit (celebrate!) instead of taking a health class so I've been riding three times a week pretty consistently for the past two months.
So, here is my problem. I'm not in this for the shows, because there's nothing good on TV, or because it's a phase. A sixteen-year-long dream (and counting) is not a phase. I want to learn everything I can about horses, and I think learning hands-on is much more effective than learning from books. But for some reason, we don't cover all this in the lessons. I can saddle a horse and do some basic grooming (curry comb, soft brush, hoof pick) but all that I had to figure out on my own or ask some of the workers. I LOOKED UP how to clean hooves on the internet, and I'm still not sure if I'm doing it right.Don't get me wrong, my instructor is amazing and I love her, and she's helped me so much with everything, especially with my confidence in the saddle (I started out slightly afraid of horses lol). But I am not by any means a bold or even remotely "hey, let's ask questions" kind of person, and if I don't ask for help, I'm not going to get it.
This is turning into rambling, sorry. What I'm trying to say is that I often feel as though I can't approach my instructor about all this, and the people I take lessons with either don't know either or are too busy with their own stuff. The gist of it is that ideally I'd like to spend a few hours a week just learning the basics of horse care, largely because I'd like to have my own someday and be at least slightly prepared for it. I adore these animals and I love just being with them almost more than riding. In fact if I were given a choice and could only choose one, I'd go with just being with them and taking care of them.
Not sure if I'm asking for help or what, maybe I just needed to rant or something. How do I do this?? Should I just suck it up and talk to her about it or stock up on books? GAH.
Thanks if you read all that haha.