I didnt see her today, thank god. Its not like I was being a b*** on the phone.
I didnt mean to reply like that. I was just so mad because of the way she called up and her tone of voice was that usuall "What the heck is going on, and your in trouble, this is outragouse!"
And I was stading right there when my mom told her that she was going up to seattle. My mom might have cancer now! But I saw my BO write it down and its still on the bored! And here I am stuck at home and she's accusing me of something that I have no control over.
She told my mom that I usually come out, or write it on the bored when I can't come out. But that was when I had a friend out there who picked me up and that was months ago because she had a huge falling out with everyone in the barn. And since then I don't go to the barn when my mom is out of town.
I just felt like I was being attacked.. you know.
My mom told me that I should go up to her and say sorry for how I said that and explain why I said it and how I felt like I was shoved in a corner. And then she wont be able to be mad at me but the thing is she dosent have to forgive me she can carry this out for a long time.
I am leaving the barn! Just need to get a place to put my horse. Which I can't wait till the weekend is over cause ill know if this lady is going to buy her.
But I keep thinking in my head that she's going to hit me or just yell at me and say all this stuff... I dunno I was a sensitive kid that was sheltered and never had to fight because I always went to adults for help and now my problem is with an adult and im not seen as one becuase im like 10 years younger. And with my family says "the adults are always right" so I know she thinks she's right cause my mom said that she thought she was asking in a sweet ol way, NOT.