Hi all... well I am writing to you here from an incredibly low and broken down place. One of my horses died today, she broke her leg apparently running about, playing, and hit it against a lone wooden post I had planted for a fence I couldnt finish.
She was an adopted horse, and after years of putting everything I could into her... several hospitalisations due to the neglect she suffered before I got her... fattened her up, and she became my favourite. And now she's gone and it's all my fault.
I am finding so difficult to cope... but on top of that... I cannot even bear the thought of keeping my other horses anymore. I am so scared that somehow they come to harm through something I did too. It seems like it just isnt meant to be for me.
I need to find homes for them. I don't know what to do currently. I am just so broken.