I posted this on a local forum today, and just don't have the strength to retype it, or to write anything else right now, so just copied and pasted. Please feel free to ask for more details. I just can't think that straight right now.
Hi all... well I am writing to you here from an incredibly low and broken down place. One of my horses died today, she broke her leg apparently running about, playing, and hit it against a lone wooden post I had planted for a fence I couldnt finish.
She was an adopted horse, and after years of putting everything I could into her... several hospitalisations due to the neglect she suffered before I got her... fattened her up, and she became my favourite. And now she's gone and it's all my fault.
I am finding so difficult to cope... but on top of that... I cannot even bear the thought of keeping my other horses anymore. I am so scared that somehow they come to harm through something I did too. It seems like it just isnt meant to be for me.
I need to find homes for them. I don't know what to do currently. I am just so broken.