I know you have a rough situation but I guess its different with my uncle's wife. I've tried being nice to her. We all have. It's not that I dislike her for no reason and like being that way. And yes, people might not say its our business how she raises her children, but I think it is because they're family. My cousin is over 5 years old and he can't really talk. He had to be held back because he wasn't ready for school. He doesn't know ANY colours, or ANY numbers. He doesn't have a learning difficulty, its just that his mother can't be bothered teaching him anything. She's never read to him. Never plays with. Never really talks to him other than to boss him around (unless strangers are watching). All day she literally sits in front of the TV or sleeps while the boys play outside unsupervised. And their house doesn't have a fence or anything. My uncle works over 70 hours a week so that his wife doesn't have to, so she can raise the boys but she's not really raising them. Neither does she cook or clean. I see them and I know they are going to be so behind when they start school, and its going to be so hard for them. And I do blame her. But your situation is different, you don't sound like her at all.
And about falling off, its just in your first post at the end, it was worded (to me at least) to imply that you fell off a lot.
Have you talked to your MIL? Sometimes being blunt and honest can be the best thing. At the very least it can bring some underlying issues into the open. Once they are there, at least you have a chance to deal with them. Just pick your time, place, words and manner carefully
Oh yeah, I dont blame you there. Wow! I hope something good comes out of that situation for the kids though. I have no advice there!
And I havent talked to her about it. I probably wont honestly. I'll just keep taking it until I blurt something out, or it resolves itself. I dont want to make drama, nor do I want her to think I want her to feel guilty.
And I do fall off alot. LOL... but it was mostly during the first few months of learning to ride and breaking my horse! And they say green plus green equals black and blue! And it is true! But I was being trained by a trainer! So I had a trainer there with me everyday for 6 months! And I still ride with her. She always tells me I'm a good rider, but I need confidence. It doesnt help when someone I think alot about (my MIL) seems unimpressed with all the work and training me and my horse went through. I have a shorter leg on one side and also was recovering from a cracked tailbone on the ride that I fell on that jump I was talking about. We had an 8 hr hard trail ride the day before and my freaking tailbone hurt so bad that I was riding mostly on my crotch instead of my seat bone (for obvious reasons). I think that had a big part in it. Bc I can stick my seat bareback when she spooks and goes does a 180 turn, lol... I'd say I'm intermediate riding a started horse. She knows her cues, but I have to keep up on riding, or she starts getting foggy. If I ride her alot she is GREAT! If she's in the field for a month and I dont ride her, that first trail ride out, she's spooky. BUT I can haul her to a show after months off (winter) and besides not bending well until I do some warm up exercises she does great! I gave my gelding the winter off too (honestly I just hate the cold, lol). And he was started. He listens really well, but the break seemed to push him back to green again. No I have an easier time riding the old rescue we just got. She's a been there done that horse. But it's just not as fun as my babies! LOL... I will make them great horses soon! And I will keep that promise!
Angels are people who can see and feel the pain in all creatures... -myself