Well basically I've been an on/off rider all my life. I've always been around horses but my riding has never progressed, I've never had consistency so it's like every time I start back riding again I'm back to square one, it's like 2 steps forward 1 step back. I also think its partly because of how scared and anxious I am before I go to lessons ect I'm not scared of the horse I'm scared of what people will think of me and I think that if someone is watching me they are judging me and all that runs through my head is "omg am I doing this right?". I can't stand people watching me, not even my mum. The only person who I can ride in front of is my old instructor nobody else, because of this I haven't been able to continue with lessons as I would have to go to a new yard as my old instructor retired. Anyway, I have been asked to ride a 15.2 coloured mare that is a bit fizzy but there is no badness in her, I've to go to the woman's yard tomorrow and ride but I am so scared of riding in front of her! I ride so much better when it's me and the horse alone and I feel that I'm going to make a complete fool of myself. I'm usually a bubbly, confident person- especially with animals for example me and my dogs regularly show off their tricks in front of people, I work on a farm with cows and sheep ect but when I'm riding I'm totally different person! I just constantly feel I'm doing something wrong and that I'm being judged. Does anyone have any advice for tomorrow or just in general?
Much appreciated , Jamie x
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