Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: Middle-of-Nowhere, Illinois
I agree with the others, I think you're burnt out.
Do you have to show? I know showing can be very draining, and maybe you just need to take some time off and chill. Spend time with your horse that doesn't involve competition. Brush him, take him for a long walk, or go on a trail ride. Just relax.
I've felt like that before, too. It felt like I was working my tail off for nothing, especially when my horse acts like a total jerk (which is somewhat frequently), and I started to wonder if it was even worth it. But then my horse nuzzles me and rests his chin on my shoulder, and I mentally slap myself for ever having such a ridiculous thought. I couldn't imagine myself without my horses.
What would you do if you got out of horses? Do you have another interest? I think you need to take a break, take a chill pill, and then think things through when you've cleared your head. I hope things work out for the best, whichever direction you choose.
"A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write, if he is ultimately to be at peace with himself.
What a man can be, he must be." Abraham Maslow, 1968