I was on meds for a while for insomnia which have suffered with for years and anxiety/depression mostly from work and yard dramas this year but am happy to say I am out of my fog and back to myself now
This is because I am off work til 20th august and have moved not only yards but to an amazing yard that is just a dream
I have managed to land myself my two stabled at a friends small sympathetic racing/schooling yard nearby which don't take liveries but know us frm racehorse to ridinghorse shows and they are big into rehoming their racers when racing career is over.
The yard is stunning and so peaceful in such a routine mine settled in so easily and are happier there. My mare hasnt put a foot wrong and she can be a right madam and my gelding isnt a stress head selfharmer in any of the paddocks been in so far.
I am loving riding on fibre surfaces, fibre gallops, fibre/gravel off road hacking tracks and having no complaining or drama or nightmare yard owners just banter and learning so much.
The girl running it with her other half is helping me school mine and I have also ridden out with them on a horse of theirs on the gallops which really hurt the next day haha. I need to go the walker to get fit