New horse opportunity....but grief still fresh?
I'm currently facing a wonderful offer on the table of a Tennessee Walker/Paint mix. This...is my DREAM horse. Something that I would think only existed in fairytales. Wouldn't happen to me kind of thing.
I've lost two horses in two years. The very first horse I had, the family horse, lived with us for 16 years. I was four years old when we got him and he was SO GENTLE and SO good with kids. I wasn't home when he died and I was/still am pretty beat up about it. I miss him like crazy. It was incredibly hard on my family.
We waited a year before even considering getting another horse. We were tentative, we missed our Joe Baby. We did get another horse, Angel, and she was eight years old. We were so excited and made all these plans for having a horse in the pasture again for the next twenty years or so.
Angel got colic six months later and she died back in April. My dad was in tears, the first time I've ever seen him cry in my entire life. He had told my mom when we had started looking for another horse that he wasn't ready to go through all of it again.
I felt really, really bad because I had pushed to get Angel. I made a promise to myself, a promise that my parents don't know about, that I would not put my family through that heartache again. I had pretty much resigned myself to no horses again.
And then we heard this lady at our library talking about rescuing horses and she had several contacts in the horse world who knew of people selling horses. She's very eager to set me up with another horse, a horse that would match me personally. It's like this baby just fell into our laps....
I would absolutely LOVE to get this paint horse. My pasture and my barn are painfully empty. I visit our State Fair just to visit the horses because I miss the smell of them. I miss having a bright face watching and waiting for me in the morning.
I want this horse. But I don't want the risk of losing another horse.
If you were facing this problem....what would you do?