Everything seems to be going in slow motion.. from when the vet was called to now. I felt like I knew Indie for all my life, and I feel like the past twenty four hours have taken forever as well. Ever since the vet looked up and said "I'm sorry", my day has gone by in a blurred manner. I tried going to school and I was so detached from everyone, so I ended up coming home.
I've also been talking to Indie all day, mostly just in my head up until I went to visit her grave. I keep on breaking down crying at random times at random thoughts. I'm in such a state of denial right now, and at those moments when I start to remember that this is really happening.. I break down crying.
And when I was at the barn, I just stood in her stall and made the bedding look perfect before hooking the gate and dusting off her blankets.
Is this normal? I've never lost someone this important to me before.