Thank you, I still am struggling so much to actually believe it. Even if I'm just opening the fridge, I start thinking about it and cry. Maybe because I frequently was opening the fridge to get an apple out for her.
My mom is ordering me a new barn jacket so I'm going to get something embroidered on the back in memory of her, I wanted to just have it say "In Loving Memory of Indie'.. but I want something more unique. I'll have to try and think of something.
I wonder if her death would have been easier for me if it didn't happen that way, although it would've been hard no matter what.. I don't think I'll ever forget that night and the panic going through my mind when she fell over as her lead rope was in my hand. When she was flailed around, I was too scared to pet her.. even though I should have. But, whenever she calmed down for a moment, I would rub the side of her face.. as her face was pressed to the wall.