not sure what to do...
Since Monday, Vega's been in heat. This is the worst heat i've seen her have ever! She sometimes isolated herself from the other horses, she'll try and run you over, she's very grumpy, agitated, can't stand still for more than 2 seconds.. the usual moody mare.
Since it's been 5 days, I thought i'd *try* and ride her and see if she'd be more willing to do anything. I was trying everything that I knew to get her to move and she wouldn't budge! I got so fed up that I would hop off and make her trot.. and go over the barrels... then when i'd get back on, she's pull the same stuff all over again. What did I expect though for getting off when she didn't listen.
But there was nothing I could do, unless I turned her head towards the gait, that would make her go forwards.
This just isn't fun anymore. I used to enjoy riding horses, enjoy everything about them.. and now, I see her and i'm like "ugh, I don't want to deal with you"
I would feel horrible if I sold her because Tom got her for me, and I'd feel like i'd be throwing part of us away.. if that makes any sense... but the other part of me is just not enjoying this, and when a horse and rider don't click, we won't ever. And we both get frustrated... but then we have the good days.
I did order the Mare Magic for her, so I'm giving that about a month to see how it affects her. If it makes her more manageable, i'll reconsider, but if I see no change in her, i'm going to think about selling her.
Aftering riding my BO's horse the other day, I really missed just being able to get on and just do whatever, without having to worry if he's going to spook at the tree, or the guy walking on the road. Should I send her off to training for a month if the Mare Magic doesn't work?
I'm just at a total loss of what to do. I went from 12 years of riding experience.. yeah I got some tough cases, but I never had to really train a horse. And i'm starting to think that I bit off a lot more than I can chew.
*sigh* I just don't know what the right move would be. Do I sell her now or do I wait? And then what kind of horse do I get next? Should I get a finished horse, or one that needs a refresher.. or what?
Why does this have to be so difficult??