Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Castle Rock,Washington
Oh confidence, where have you gone?!?
Ugh! I don't know what happened! I just lost all confidence unless I'm in a western saddle! I mean, I used to jump almost 2 feet bareback (well, with a bareback pad) and last time I tried in a bareback pad, I freaked out and quickly changed! I mean, even if I think about jumping bareback anymore I freak out and I think "Wow, I really did that? What was I thinking?!?" I mean, it's not like I had any bad expiriences bareback or anything...Well, I tried to canter bareback and she threw me, but we weren't even jumping at the time! I don't understand what happened :( I really do want to jump bareback again...I just can't!
Oh! And I just got a new english saddle as a gift from my friend, and I thought I would use it 24/7 for jumping and all that...Nope! It's just going to waste. I tried riding in it once, and it was slippery because it was oiled up (thank you previous owners :P) and I could hardly trot without panicking, let alone jump. I tried riding in another english saddle before on her, and same thing! I couldn't do anything in it! And now I feel terrible because it's just sitting there, and like I said it was a gift! I mean, again, nothing bad has ever happened in an english, never thrown, nothing! I used to ride one of the spooky horses in a canter (and he has a fast canter!) on an english saddle, he'd spook, buck, anything and I stayed in fine...I just don't understand why I can't ride bareback or english on my horse! Ugh...It just makes me so mad at myself, I don't know what changed :(