At this point? You need more exposure to horses I think.
Getting a horse is an expensive proposition at the best of times.
And getting into horses without a mentor if you aren't experienced? The worst thing you can do. As is not listening to someone that is trying to steer you in the right direction.
Case in point? 45 year old friend of mine bought 2 mares. Told her bad idea, as seller was methhead years ago, and still "don't look quite right" out of his eyes.
She bought them anyway, be 2 years this Dec. In those 2 years? They have not been ridden but maybe 30 times AND those were bareback in halter, because??? They've never been trained hardly. And never been bitted, and know nothing.
Although the 5 year old? Knows very well how to kick, strike, cowkick, bite and rear AND charge at them. And these were supposed to be "kid's horses" too. And forgot to mention she bucks. HARD.
She only gave 350 for the two fools. Will never get that. And has fed/watered/boarded them too. She wouldn't listen to reason, thought she could "love them into being good" and she and they will pay the price.
Get someone to work with you for a while, and then get a trained, sensible horse, gelding is best.
Wouldn't touch that stallion with ten foot pole, don't like his head, and pictures aren't good of mare either.
Horses make me a better person.