Thank you all so very much. I honestly love each and every one of you. I would never imagine that people who I don't even really know would be so compassionate, supportive and caring. I can't thank you guys enough. <3
Even though it's been a couple days, the pain is still as strong as ever. I can't close my eyes without seeing him and then I just lose it. People try and talk to me about him but I can't even handle hearing his name let alone thinking about everything. I know I should be thankful for the time I did get to spend with him and to look back on the happy memories. But all I can remember is saying goodbye to him and walking away from that trailer.
I know losing a pet, partner and best friend is tough but it's even more heartbreaking when all of this could have been avoided. When I have enough strength I will tell you guys the whole story - how this all happened in the first place. Right now it's just too painful and I get way too mad to even think about it. But I promise you guys will get the full story and I promise knowing everything will make you guys understand even more how infuriating and senseless this loss is for me.
My friends, family and entire horse community have banded together to comfort me. I didn't realize how many lives Robbie touched and how many people are saddened by his death. He really wasn't just a horse or a pet: he was a little 5 year old boy trapped inside the body of a gorgeous grey. His personality, quirks and talent really made him memorable to everyone who met him and it hurts so much more that he was so innocent in all of this. His future was so promising and it's a tragedy that he was only with me for 4 short years.
I never want to forget him but right now all I want to do is forget him (if that makes any sense whatsoever). I've also decided that I want to get something so that I can always have him with me. A friend of mine suggested jewelry made of horse hair. I searched the web and found 2 bracelets I really like. Has anybody gotten custom horse hair jewelry? Any companies you've used that you really like or disliked? Or any other things I can do to remember him? I'm open to any and all suggestions you guys have, I really appreciate it.
These are the two bracelets I like:
And this one would be engraved (with what not sure)