That's good BEP, my mare Bubbles passed away 2 years ago this april in my arms and I have some of her tail and mane but I still find it hard to even look at it or touch it because it reminds me of that day watching her fade in my arms, and that really hurts. I haven't gotten it made into anything yet but I will one day.
Everybody grieves differently though, and apparently my grief takes a lot longer than some.
It took me a long time to be able to think of him without crying, and I have a little bit of his mane that I still can't look at, but yes, grief is different for everyone.
My point is, it's normal to feel crushed and absolutely devastated, and the best thing you can do is have a real good cry and let it out. Holding the sadness inside and controlling your tears will prolong your grief and that is how grief turns into depression. If you can let it out, cry on someone's shoulder, think about him, talk about him, feel that pain and let it swallow you for a while, you will come out the other side. People say life goes on, be strong, etc blah blah blah, but I've found if you give yourself a good two or three weeks, or even a month, to really just feel it and let it out, you'll be able to let go in time. If you hold it inside yourself and don't let yourself feel, you can never really let go.
It was so hard for me to use Latte's halter after I lost him, and it took me a good year and a half to even be able to bring myself to look at it [and I bawled my eyes out!], but using it again, on Monty, was what in the end allowed me to let go. I still miss him but letting Latte go went a long way to healing the hole in my heart where he used to be.