I am so sorry to hear of your horse passing. When I read your story, I remembered a time at my vets. I was there with my golden retriever and folks where asking about him, if I had had others before, etc. One asked was he the best. Where my reply came from I don't know, but I I said yes he is because the ones that came before him taught me to be a better owner and person. Chinga is always going to be with you. What he taught you is part of who you are now. If/when the times comes for another, you will be sharing him.