It's raining here this morning, so I text my instructor to see if we were still riding this afternoon.
She text me back to say that YES we can ride, and that Junior is out on a test, so I'll be riding Fritz, and also Fritz will be sold this weekend.
I'm frustrated and worried. Frustrated because no one really knew when Fritz was going to go, and it's been no/yes/no/yes/no/yes for so long now, but now I guess it's going to happen. I'm fine with his sale because I no longer adore him as much as I used to. I am prepared to admit that he's too much horse for me, and congrats to the little girl who bought him.
I'm worried because once Junior is gone, who am I going to ride after that? I believe that riding different horses is good for a newer rider, but I feel that I am confident on Junior, so I should stick with him until I possibly grow WITH him, or out grow him (which I highly doubt that'll happen).
So, lets say that both Fritz and Junior are gone, then who will I ride? I'm sure I can find another horse at the barn I'm at, but lets say I can't. Then what? I'd have to find another barn, right? Nope. The rest of the barn's in my area, and I'm not joking here.... Ride English, and are geared toward eventing. Granted that was my main goal coming into horseback riding at the beginning of the summer, my mind has changed, and I very much LIKE western. Of course there are those surprise barns that don't advertise at all, which we have a few around here also.
I'm just sad/frustrated/worried/and sick. I plan on going on my ride today despite the massive cold that I have. I'm going to ride Fritz, and not take any of his crap, and I guess next week, when I am there for my 'extra riding time' (my instructor gave me extra riding time instead of leasing Junior), we'll see what happens.