I remember being around 8 or 9 when I got my first horse. I was head over heels for horses, knew almost everything about them and loved her so much. Sadly, because I lived in a city and she was boarded two hours away with a relative I rarely saw her and in time our funds ran dry and we had to sell her. For over a decade I really bedded down a lot of my love for horses because of where I was living. Of course, plenty of other animals entered my life and left it but now, at 20 and in college, I finally have a friend who is also a horse person and I'm remembering just how much I loved being around them.
So, here's the problem... I'm terrified to adopt/buy a horse without knowing I can care for them fully. I'm a college student and in my third year as a psychology major, but lately my mind is barely on my studies. I'd much rather be out in the field! I can't see my friend's horse as often as I'd like and beyond it all I have to accept that she's not MY horse and there's a bond there that can't form. I'm not sure what I should do!
I'm taking a horsemanship class to get a refresher on things I might have forgotten or learned wrong but it's still not as much time as I'd like to be out. How do you balance something that you're not really loving as much anymore but are so close to finishing and something that genuinely makes you happy but you can't afford?
It's also very important to me to help my mental health. School stress has worsened my physical and mental health horribly in the last year but being with horses helps a lot...