About 4 yrs ago I had a very bad riding accident that almost left me crippled if I did not receive surgery. My ankle was broke in at least 6 places, both leg bones broken, the ball off my tibia was broke off etc. Had to have 2 metal plates and about 19 screws to fix. Doctors said it was one of the worst they'd seen and that I was lucky to be still walking.
I know my problem is I overthink things, as I put miles on my green Arabian about 3 yrs ago and had been riding him fairly constant. But, I did put up an ad looking for help to ride my horse, and I met this lady. She's been riding for me for about 2 yrs now and we have become pretty good friends.
Last year, my horse who was not normally a stupid spooky horse, decided to change that. So I went flying last year. I wasnt hurt, but it really did a number on my confidence....again, which was already damaged.
I have been up on him once this year due to my friend (same friend who answered ad) and one of our boarders who wanted me to go with them. I have told them I want to get back into riding. Which is true. I am just afraid.
Which is my problem, my friend does not seem to understand my issue and talks to me as if its nothing which bothers me. I know she is a well meaning person and does not intend to be rude, but sometimes its the way she says things. Sometimes she's like "i thought you wanted to get back into it' and 'whatever' and walks away...leaving me feeling stupid.
I know another lady at our feed store who had a similar accident to mine, and she feels the same way I do...it was nice to hear her say the EXACT same things I am going thru. It really does mess with your mojo...and I don't know how to get it back......