(It helps me deal with it if I talk about it so bare with me) My mom has terminal breast cancer, she was diagnosed 3 months before I left for college. Recently (yesterday actually) we found out that the cancer is getting progressively worse, when we were told that they were treating it successfully. She had her cemo port taken out and 2 days later she found a tumor under her arm which she had removed yesterday, it was confirmed it was cancer. They doctors told us it has spread threw her body and they can no longer contain it. I don't know how to deal with this and im rather conflicted with emotion. But anyways.
This is effecting my riding lately, im distracted, I can't think straight. I fumble around ontop of my horse and give him mixed messages. I find myself tensing up and leaning forward more. I just cannot relax and focus on my riding. Which is a big problem considering I go to college to ride horses . I have a trail test tomorrow and I have a feeling its going to go horribly wrong. I feel so overwhelmed with everything that's going on, especially when im ontop of a horse. I just can't shut my brain off
Have any of you ever experienced this kind of thing? If so what did you do to help it? I appreciate any ideas or advice