the basic story of what happened with her:
A year ago I gave her to someone that used to ride her before I owned her, without telling me she gave Chance to a friend of hers. They stopped riding her because they were scared of her (the girl was only 15, I specifically said in her ad that she wasn't to be ridden by nervous people especially kids) so she ended up just sitting in the field doing nothing. I went up there a few times to ride her, obviously not being in work she was very...fresh? But didn't do anything dangerous. I couldn't afford to keep going up there very often. Couple of months later I was told she was being sold to someone 8 hours away, they told me the day before she was going. So I somehow had to scrape the money up to get the train to go see her quick before she was gone. When I got there she was skin and bones and really lame. I cried my eyes out as soon as I saw her but I was happy she was going to a new home where she'd be looked after and ridden. I asked to have the new owners contact details so I could keep touch with her to see how she was doing etc. I was told they'd send them in a message but they never did. I now have no idea where she is or how she is. That is the last I heard of her, back in august.
The first one was a couple of weeks ago, It was just of me riding her through a field, nothing really unusual apart from I remember constantly having a feeling that something was wrong, like something had happened to her, even though I was riding her at the time? I woke up and still had that same feeling for a few hours after. The second one was a couple of days after, I can't actually remember what happened in it, apart from that same feeling that something was wrong. The last, but worst one, was this morning. I went to see Chance (not sure how I knew where she was) but when I got there, there were loads of other horses but no Chance. I kept asking where she was but nobody would tell me. For some reason I had a gut feeling that she had died, but when I asked everyone avoided the question. Then the lady that apparently owned her started offering me a young mare that looked a little like chance but she was saying "I know this is going to break your heart, but you can take this mare instead" and I was crying hysterically. I woke up crying and continued to cry for another half hour after realising it was only a dream.
I was wondering if anyone had any idea what it all meant? It just seems strange to me that its all suddenly started now months after she had gone. thank you to anyone that actually read all of this and anyone that comments!