Well, for those who didn't know, I don't have a horse, I don't attend a barn, nor do I ride. I used to ride. I have 6 years under my belt, but thanks so certian circumstances I had to quit. It's been 3 going on 4 years since I quit, and ever since then I've only been on a horse once or twice. :( (This really is ashaming and hard for me to say.)
Well, thankfully, a new door has opened up for me. My former barn recently moved to a new location and the owner offered me a job to come to the barn and help out once or twice a week in exchange for riding here and there. I'm also going to be helping out with the riding camps. I jumped at the chance and of course said yes, but I'm also very nervous.
Well, you see one of the reasons I quit riding at that particular barn was because of the enviroment. My "friends" whom we babysat wouldn't even talk to me there. The avoided me and called me a fat pig. I always ended up forgiving them and moving on. No one really talked to me much there either. I always offered to clean tack, and clean stalls, and groom horses, just so I could hang out with the person who was doing it and maybe make a friend, well most of the time I ended up doing the chores while they did whatever. And things didn't help when I broke my arm riding. People laughed at me and said it was my own fault because I couldn't ride. Even my classmates from school wouldn't talk to me at the barn! It was like I was the worst person to be around.
So basically people put me down. But now, I'm older, and I'm able to endure more of this, but I'm worried that it will happen again and I'll just be the person standing in the corner once more. Got any advice?
P.S-I'm not sure whether most of the people who hurt me most are still there, considering the new location is very inconveniant to most of the students. And I really don't want to sound whiney in this letter. Please, if I do, kindly tell me. I dislike being bashed.
Also, sorry if this is the wrong board. I wasn't too sure were to put this.