I feel that way sometimes.
I don't feel anyone trusts me around horses and
I can't do anything right. But I learned. I watched.
And, I got nagged
. I admit a read a few books
to gain my knowledge but watching doesn't get
you too far. As your riding, ask your instructer what
you want to know, possibly sometime ask her to give you
a lesson on caring for your horse rather that a riding lesson.
You can learn a lot. Once I was entering showmanship and
needed some help and guess what? I got about five fabulous
lessons on showmanship...you know what happened? I got
my first blue ever that's what happened! All instructors/
BO's are a wealth of knowledge...you might have your
"go-to-gal" right there and not know it! So, basically,
ask questions when you get a chance, talk to people, maybe
even reserve a lesson on caring for your horse is all I have to say.