I feel done...I just don't want to be
One last shot...need some advice
Basically, because I don't feel like explaining everything AGAIN, if anyone is interested, there are my last two threads on this same subject.
Basically, I have very poor confidence and am considering whether or not to sell my horse. Before I do, I really wanted to get lessons from a good trainer to try and work through my issues so that I won't have to sell my lovely horse.
I finally spoke to my dad, told him I had the trainer's number, and he said I could try her, but that she wouldn't be able to do much for my fear. He said that it was up to me to overcome this mental block and get myself over being scared and unconfident.
I was so sure I was going to take lessons and that she would help me and I would get over my confidence problems...and now, after what dad said, I'm not so sure. I know that I am definitely not going to be able to do anything by myself, as it already has been that I go out day after day and only get worse and worse, but I'm kind of starting to believe him. Is it true that the trainer will be unable to help me? Is this confidence something you can't be taught? If that's the case, then I should just sell now, and stop riding altogether because I'm not brave enough.
And now I'm nervous about calling the trainer. It's been over a week since I've last rode my horse...there's no point keeping her when I can't ride her or provide her with a strong leader. She deserves better.