Turns out, I was never strong enough to leave...What was I thinking!
There was a point in my life, not long ago, that I thought "I am strong enough to be without my horses for a short period of time." I stand corrected. Nothing has crumbled this cowgirl to her knees quicker then being apart from her horses!! I got married this past december, my husband is in the Army and stationed in Hawaii. We are both from Southern Oregon. I moved here to be with him in February. I will tell you what, I feel like my arms have been cut off without my girls!! Literally, I have questions everything about myself without them. My intelligence, my purpose, my skills in life, my decision to move here, literally everything. I find that I have a hard time coping with things without my "happy place." I went home to visit in May/June. I took a video just sitting on the floor in my horses stall so I could have it when I came back to Hawaii. Walking away from my mares stall was the number 1 hardest thing I have ever done, worse the second time around because I knew how hard it was to be here without her. Just goes to show, that even "paradise" is hell without my horses. I now volunteer at the local rescue ranch. I get my "horse" fix there, and really enjoy it. But nothing will ever take the place of the bond I have with my own horses. They practically raised me for crying out loud!! Lol
***Moral of the story***
If you think you can live without your horses...don't do it. And if your wise enough to know you can't, go out and hug them, kiss them, and love on them....because somewhere in the world, there is a girl and her horse separated for whatever reason. And I can honestly say, that girls heart is breaking in half without her four legged soul mate!!