Just a warning before you read this, it's going to be long post and just me rambling and this will probably make no sense, so beware
Ok, where to start. Basically i'm almost 16 years old and in my last year of school and next year I need to start thinking seriously about what I want to do after school and start to apply for colleges. For years and years i've always wanted to be a veterinary nurse or working with dogs or small animals. That was until I started riding horses 2 years ago.
Ever since I started riding everything changed, they were all I thought about and I just wanted to spend all my time with them, I was visiting the college i'm thinking of applying to earlier this year and they have an excellent equine course that i'm interested in and would like to apply for, but i'm unsure what to do. My first problem is, is that I don't want to make a fool of myself. I have about 5 'friends' who all want to do the same course but the thing is they've been riding for years and years and all own horses, whereas I spend about an hour and a half a week with horses and have been riding for 2 years, i'm inexperienced and i'm worried my riding will let me down and my lack of knowledge with horse care, I am taking a course to learn about the basics of horse care and have just passed my first 4 modules and would say I know the 'basics' of horse care. But i'm a nervous rider and haven't been riding long, whereas all these girls have competed and owned horses since they we're young.
I love horses and would love to make a career out of them but I don't want to make a fool of myself, I understand that i'm learning but I don't want to embarrass myself. Should I follow my heart and accept that i'm going to make mistakes and look like an idiot or not? It's confusing!
Also, I don't think my parents are particularly happy about me wanted to go to college with the horses. My mum has always wanted me to make something of myself and go to university and be a doctor or something like that or at least follow in her footsteps and be a nurse. My dads always telling me that I need to think about money and that working with animals won't make enough money. Neither of them take any interest in my hobbies and both believe that my horse riding is just a fad and i'll 'grow out of it', but it's not.
This makes me sound like a spoilt child I guess because i'm moaning because they take no interest in what I do but i'm also worried about letting them down. I don't want them to be ashamed of me and my choices, but I wish they could understand that animals are my choice and accept the fact that one way or another I will work with animals when i'm older. Its all i've ever wanted to do.
I just want to know do any of you have a career with horses? Did it work out for you? Because at the moment i'm worried about letting my family down and making a fool of myself, I just don't think i'm good enough at the moment?
I'd like to be a dog trainer or groomer or something also and a lot of people are telling me that I may as well do that and have horses as a hobby, have any of you gave up your dreams of working with horses and just had them as a hobby because of financial things?
Thank you for bearing with me in this long rambly post which makes no sense. I just needed to get this off my chest. It's confusing being a teenager having to make these choices, I just don't know what to do, i'm afraid of failing and letting myself and others down. Is it worth trying to get a job with horses? Or should I just do something else?