Very sad and happy at the same time *long*

I'm heartbroken but I know this is for the best. I just can't believe it happened so quickly. I'm trying to wrap my heart around it.

After everything we've been through, Carolina has moved on to another owner.

She wigged out on me completely this morning. It's the first time in my life I actually thought "Oh my God I'm about to die." And I've been through some pretty hairy situations thanks to the army.

There was a trainer there at the barn, not the one that owns it but visiting for a lesson. I hadn't yet moved Carolina to the closer barn. Anyway she got a hold of Carolina and calmed her down while I stood on the opposite side of the arena trying to catch my breath.

Then I broke into tears. I am ashamed to admit it but I knew I wasn't going to ever get back on Carolina. I have never been truly terrified of a horse but now I am.

We got to talking, the barn owner, the trainer, the barn owner's friend and I. The trainer wanted Carolina. She had the time, the money and the skill to work with her, I know her facility and it's impressive. I know she's a good person. If anyone can help Carolina it's her.

I thought I was ok with the decision. I cried again and left. I know I'm not the right person for Carolina, I wish to God I was.

It sounds like you made a good decision. Was Carolina the one that was a rescue?

Yes she was a rescue.

When she doesn't want to do something her way of getting out of it is to rear up and flip over. This time I happened to be on her.

I know that was not the decision you wanted to make or the easy one, but I think it was the right one.

Yeh I believe it's the right decision.

That is one of the issues with rescues, you never truley know their pasts and on occasion they have some pretty severe issues. I think it is commendable that you gave her a second chance, and in all honosty - a third by giving her a home with a trainer that can help her. Rearing is one of the most dangerous things a horse can do. You made a good decision. I'm sorry that you had to make it. But be proud of yourself....

I know it can be absolutely heartbreaking when things don't work out. Just remember that she can be much happier and have a fuller life if she is trained properly with the right people. This is what's best for both of you. Developing a fear of horses in general is a horrible way for any horse lover to live. And Carolina obviously has issues that need to be addressed to help her learn to trust.

Im so sorry to hear this happen to you.
You made the right decision, even if it doesnt feel like it is.
Sometimes our best really isnt our best, but you gave her your best.
Hopefully Carolina will be happy,
She loved you :)

Hang in there !

So sorry that you had to give up Carolina but maybe she can get the help she needs now and that you know who has her is a huge plus you did the best thing that you could

I was wondering why you were so heartbroken :( Everyone is right...You did the right thing. You did it out of love for her because you knew giving her to the trainer was the best option. Hang in there.