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        11-02-2011, 09:59 PM
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    Yearling
    Well, I said goodbye today

    I sold my horse today. I keep telling myself it's what was best for him.
    I never thought my heart would feel ripped in two.
    All of this for some stupid truck.
    All because I had to be stupid and hit someone, I lost my boy.
    He really was special to me. My hero really.
    I know he's going to a good home. They were prepared to bring him home. I saw the trailer and I knew it was the end. The end of our story together, but not the end to it all.
    One of these days, when I can afford it better, I'll have another.
         
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        11-02-2011, 10:12 PM
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    Yearling
    I gave him the usual pat on the shoulder and the scratch on the forehead, nothing more. I knew if I lingered, I'd break my false calm. I'd lose it, crying to them, "Take the money! Just let me keep my baby!"
    I love him far too much to hinder his well-being though. He deserves so much more than what I can selfishly provide. I'm just going to miss him. I still cannot believe I watched that trailer pull away without a struggle. I cried a few tears and went to work. Cleaned my stall out, took what little was left of my other belongings and sent them aside. I even took the stall card out. I looked it over a while. It read "Horse owner: Reann Phillips".
    Not anymore. I'm still looking at the card, the ink is now running from my tears.
    I'm typing and I can barely see the keyboard.

    My heart is literally breaking. I don't want to feel this new found pain. It aches, almost burns.
    Why didn't I feel like this when I sold my first horse? Does this pain mean I choose wrong? I don't know, I fear I've made a terrible mistake.

    I'm going to check up on Apollo and his new family in a few days. I dare not call them, I probably wouldn't be able to speak.

    Someone, tell me I'm dreaming. Wake me up, shake me from this nightmare.
    Please?
         
        11-02-2011, 10:12 PM
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    Trained
    Sorry you had to sell your boy but it sounds like you made a great decision for him, rather than for you.
         
        11-02-2011, 10:33 PM
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    THN
    Foal
    Keep that card. Right now it is a sad thing, but let it be inspiration to work hard to be in a place where you can be "Horse owner: Reann Phillips" again.
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        11-02-2011, 11:10 PM
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    And keep writing! Use this to let yourself write and develop the skill.
         
        11-02-2011, 11:13 PM
      #6
    Yearling
    I will. Its going to be hard for me but I will have another one.
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        11-02-2011, 11:17 PM
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    Started
    I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine.

    My grandma always says, "This too shall pass." I bet you'll feel at least a little better when you visit him and see that he's in a good home. And who knows? Lives change. Maybe he'll end up with you again someday.

    I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
         
        11-03-2011, 01:30 AM
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    Yearling
    I'm so sorry. I don't even know what to say, except that I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. (hugs)
         

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