Originally Posted by stormylass
God I am soooooo glad you guys mentioned this!!! I have been on horse my whole life I have ridden the nastiest little punks!not a problem but for some reason in the last year I all of a sudden don't trust even my own youngsters, WHY WHY WHY !!! I am training race horses FOR GOODNESS SAKE! For some reason until I really get to know them I get nervous, I thought of going to a sport psychologist, because NOTHING has happend. I thought well I am extremely safety concious, it comes with the job(critical care paramedic for 27 years)I see things that most people don't see as a danger! But this is rediculous, and yet I have a studdy 17h exracer that is my heart horse I love him I trust him 100% and most people are afraid of him I absolutly am not, the other day the vet was checking him and he was acting like a stud, the vet said he was going to drug him(had something in eyelid) I said no he will be fine, he just looked at me, I made him stop! He held still the vet said I can't believe this, I said he is the best horse, the vet asked do you ride him ? Well yea of course he said I wanna see that kinda sarcasticly, I said ok give me a leg up, the vet is like no that's ok I said no iwant you to see him, so up I went just a halter and rode him back to his pasture. So see any of my others are fine but other peoples no, and I know it is just getting smarter with age, but this "thing" that I am feeling around some of these horse IS STUPID, and I don't know what to do, what do I do I AM DESPERATE FOR AN ANSWER AND HELP! Let me know what you guys think.
I don't have the answer but be comforted to know I am soooo right there with ya, sista!!
I have gone through periods of being totally afraid of my mare when she had done nothing to cause it. Absolutely nothing negative had happened and yet I'm standing on the mounting block terrified......my 5 year old has the best disposition and two weeks ago I had a day where I just fell apart and barely made it through my lesson. Embarrassing!! The last several times I've ridden him I've been just fine. It comes and goes with me. I just make myself ride through it.
I just turned the big 4-0, so I'm chalking it up to being pre-menopausal....I have no solution.